SCATTERED

     All throughout my life, I have felt scattered.  One of my early journals, entitled the "Captain's Log," was actually subtitled as "the Story of a Man Trying to Get His Shit Together" (but unfortunately that chronicle has been lost to history).  Nature (as pictured above) has helped me to feel grounded, but even so I have a hard time staying focused.  Honestly, I'm surprised that I made it as far as I did academically, as I now hold a master's degree in Community Counseling.  I'm suffering under the spell of the great cacophony that is our modern culture.  As many of my peers have already done, I could probably meet the criteria for adult ADD and get legally prescribed stimulants which would increase my focus tenfold.  I have considered this.  However, my main concern with that is that I already have trouble sleeping as it is.  What would happen if I added amphetamines on top of that?  Probably nothing good...

     Lately, I have been reading a book which I bought in Dallas some time ago at one of their Half Price Books stores.  The book is called Positive Energy, and it's by a psychiatrist named Judith Orloff.  Yes, it's some mainstream New Agey-type stuff, but it's got some good ideas contained therein.  She has brought together some ideas and insights which I have heard before from other occult sources and grouped them under what she calls "Energy Psychiatry".  The book gives useful little bites of simple exercises designed to ground you, insulate you from the negative energies of your environment, and build your intuition safely.

     I like the idea of the subtle energy fields of the body and relate strongly to them.  In fact, some of the best work on myself that I ever did had to do with when I engaged in the Middle Pillar ritual nightly before I went to bed.  If you simply make an effort to look within and feel where your energy is body-wise, you will not be disappointed. 
    

Flight

When I was about 14 or so, I had a spontaneous out-of-body experience. I got out of bed in the middle of the night as one does to go to the toilet half-consciously only to find that I was shorter or lower to the ground somehow than usual. I looked at the light switch in the dark, and then back at the bed. "I" was still there - my body anyway... The part of me that was watching all of this slowly realized what was happening and was delighted! I merely had a thought of the garage and was then instantly transported thereto. I did all manner of somersaults and flips Bruce Lee-style which I could never have accomplished in real life. I teleported again - this time outside the house in front of the kitchen window. The pinnacle of the whole experience came when I jumped from here all the way above the gable of the house and hung there for several minutes. Everything was so crisp and clear in the night air. I could see all the details of the roof and the limbs of the trees from this unique perspectives. Afterwards, I flew toward the ground at lightning speed but just touched down lightly as a feather. Such an experience left me thirsting for more, and I did achieve occasional projections like this. But they were never quite like that...

I think that I had been doing some version of Regardie's Middle Pillar Technique before bedtime. Come to think of it, I should begin doing that again. If you do it right, you can feel the energies of your body awakening, and you get them going. So many things punch holes in our auras these days, and if you work to seal them up, then all kinds of good things can happen to you... Like soul travel....