PEACE OF MIND

I've not written to you, oh my blog, in quite some time.

This weekend, I've been convalescing from a cold and have somehow avoided getting a stomach virus which seems to be all around me. I slept a lot yesterday, which I indeed have to be sick in order to do. Overall, my body is better but somehow I feel like I'm unbalanced. Maybe it was the sleeping a lot... I'm in one of those "how am I going to get through this school and career thing and not feel like an imposter" moods, most certainly. Humility, I realize, is the integral state needed for spiritual progression, but I'm falling back into low self-esteem-type stuff, which, because the focus is on myself, is just as bad as being egotistical. At least I'm realizing this and processing it, I guess.

Again, too much thought...

Great Spirit, guide my way...

self loathing

This morning, I moved our pet turtle from the bathroom sink (where she had stayed for well over a week) into a cooler which I had cleaned out in a good way, I thought. Apparently the soap I used to clean out the plastic container was toxic to Looksi, because before I left for work she was dead...

I feel like utter shit. Though this death was certainly not intentional, I still feel quite responsible.

Just thought I'd share this...